Hello Ziying...

perhaps u should read this before I say what i want to say...  http://thehottestguyalive.blogspot.sg/2013/04/hello-rachel.html#comment-form

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So ya.... Im sorry Ziying. I am really sorry for breaking yr trust. Pls believe me... I didnt want to do it because I wanted to screw things up.. It jus all happened like that... and ya.... I so freaking sorry... I jus haven been able to sleep properly ever since this whole thing happened cuz I feel like I am the cause of this whole shit, which is probably true. And yes, I lied to u. Not just once, but countless of times. I am so sorry. Everytime I lied, a small part of me died inside. I really hate lying esp to my close ones and ya... u r like one of  closest jc friends and I really hate myself for lying to u even after breaking yr trust... I just did so cuz I know u will be so bloody mad at me... I mean u have all the right in the world to be so angry with me but ya I didnt want all this spoil the friendship I have with you uh... But then, today I realised I cant do it anymore. I cant continue lying everyday so as to continue our friendship. Its time to let it out and face the consequences. Yes, I dun have to guts to face u and tell u this directly because of all the shit I did, I dun even deserve to stand before u and tell u this. And thats why Im telling u thru this. Im not telling u not be angry or anything but  really I jus hope u understand my point of view Ziying. I never wanted all this to be like and Im extremely sorry all this happened. Im really really very sorry :( jus hope u understand....